Depressed Day

I am so sad today. I hate my life. Nothing has turned out the way I thought it would. I still have no job. And I don't go to school. I don't even know if I want to be with my husband. He just turns me through so many loops, makes me go through so much. I mean first he says he wants time apart and the next week (literally) he wants a baby. Now he wants me to quit smoking and took all the cigarettes yet he will still smoke. Its not fair!!! I hate being here all day. I hate my life. I want to leave it all behind and start a new one. Maybe everyone was right and I shouldn't have got married.