So yesterday he couldn't find his cell phone- it is lost now. But anyway he didn't have it at work so he couldn't call me at lunch yet again. And he came home just a little bit late for no reason. Then he preceded to spend all night on the damn computer. I was like, "We should do something fun together." And we decided to play Gears of War- a game we used to play all the time together. After about 2 hours I was like "You wanna play Gears now?" and that's when he was like, "I had a hard day at work, I don't really feel like playing". That made my heart sink.
I wore a shirt for him that barely covers my boobs and it's really sexy and yet he barely looked or kissed me. Then I changed into some lingere for night time and yet again he didn't do anything. He wouldn't kiss me. He wouldn't spend any time with me. Every conversation I tried to start he quickly ended. I'm like, what the hell do you want me to do? I cleaned the house, did dishes, cooked an amazing dinner, and yet that still isn't enough for you to notice me. He is making me crumble. I just don't know what to do. I'm trying but he won't even let me in. I'm trying to act as normal as I can but when he shuts me out, I can't help but to be upset.
So then it was bed time. I decided to sleep on the counch because all night I was getting the vibe that he didn't want to be around me. I chose not to sleep with him because it hurts too much. I think he had the nerve to be upset when I didn't sleep with him but he was the one who was pretty much ignoring me the WHOLE night. Give me a break. You can't tell someone that you don't know if you still want them, then procede to ignore them, and still expect the person to be perfectly fine. That is not how it works. Besides I get the vibe that you have already made up your mind about me so just say it. It is torture to be with the man I love so dearly and have him treat me like he wishes I weren't there. It sucks!!!!!
I'll give it to him though, this hurts me so bad. I don't know how much more I can take. He's breaking my heart and I'm letting him. :(
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