Lazy Day

So today I am still in bed. My plan was to sleep all day that way I wouldn't have to think about anything going on. It's such a difficult position to be in, to be the one that wants to stay while the other isn't so sure. There are so many thoughts that cross my mind because of it. Am I not good enough? What did I do wrong? How can I fix it? What do I do?
So many thooughts that cannot be answered yet. We had another talk yesterday. After the talk he was actually laughing and trying to make me laugh, it felt so good. I think he only did that because he feels bad though. Because the rest of the night, he was on the computer barely talking to me. I hate it because I try to talk to him. But now it's like I have to think about everything I'm going to say first because all of a sudden I'm scared to sound stupid in front of him. He wants me to act normal but he doesn't understand that it's so hard for me to act normal when he is not! When I make a comment that has anything to do with us being together for a long time, he rolls his eyes like I shouldn't have said anything. But I use to say stuff like that all the time.
He's pushing me away. Part of me thinks it's on purpose. The other part of me thinks that he doesn't even realize he's doing it. But either way, I don't think he cares one bit.
And also, I feel kind of bad about it but I am starting to get mad now. Like how can he be so unsure after only 9 months of marriage? How can he let this go so easily? How can he throw everything away just like that?
I think I am only angry because that is my defense. Who knows, I'm still trying to sort through this mess.